In a new interview with Tracy Smith on CBS Sunday Morning on Sept. 16, Carrie Underwood revealed that she suffered three miscarriages before becoming pregnant with her upcoming child.
Carrie and husband Mike Fisher are the parents of son Isaiah, 3, and are now expecting their second bundle of joy.
But as Carrie told Tracy, 2017 and 2018 have been full of personal hardships.
“I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby,” said Carrie. “We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out . . . Yeah. It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’ And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out . . . Got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn’t work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?'”
Carrie revealed that creating her new album, Cry Pretty—including the lead single—has been therapeutic for her.
“And throughout the whole process, you know, I’m writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I’d have a writing session, I’d be like, ‘Let’s go. You know, I can’t just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this.’ Cause I would literally have these horrible things going on in my life, and then have to go smile and, like, do some interviews or, like, do a photo shoot or something, you know? So it was just kind of, like, therapeutic, I guess.”
As Carrie prepares for the birth of her second child, she says God answered her prayers when she thought she suffered a fourth miscarriage earlier this year.
“Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, ‘I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah.’ And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing,” Carrie said. “And I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.’
“And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday—and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!
“And I was like, ‘You heard me.’ Not that He hasn’t in the past. But maybe, I don’t know, He heard me.”
Cry Pretty is available now. Carrie will embark on a new tour with Maddie & Tae and Runaway June in spring 2019.
Watch Carrie’s Sunday Morning interview below.